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so im pretty sure no one reads this anymore do they? |
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[Feb. 1st, 2007|05:15 pm] |
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"If I'd paid attention to what others were thinking, the heart in me would have died. But I was much too stubborn to ever be governed by enforced insanity. Someone had to reach for the rising star, I guess it was up to me."-bob dylan
if ever i was looking for the right words to but how my life is going and where its heading... its that. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|03:35 am] |
i havent posted in forever. i doubt anyone reads this anymore.
im in boston. night shift.
drunk watch.
atleast i got 3 hours of sleep.
rode with the boston EMTs on friday.
responded to a guy OD'd on heroin.
if you have never seen someone OD'd i highly suggest you do and then think about doing drugs.... its sad.
friday drank too.
drink. drank. drunk.
honestly i want to be back in virginia right now.
we hadnt planned on comming to boston so yes on short notice we got stuck with it.
sometimes i get the feeling im going to be old and lonely and i need to realize it.
why is it that people tell me you look so happy but some days people act like im going crazy. whatever. im starting to take college classes.
riding around with the EMT's makes me want to be a paramedic and save people. so my goals before the navy... get a degree in health science managment andddd get ems/paramedic qualified
oh and by the way... my dad has cancer. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|04:09 pm] |
so i have duty today
which means every 8 days i have to stay here for 24hrs.
suck my dick
anyway
ive been painting the o2 store room, i was wearing a respirator but i still feel light headed and i feel like gonna fall over any second.
wednesday i saw thrice
thursday i saw the horrorpops,sick of it all and dropkick murphys
yesterday i saw the amber pacific, the early november and silverstein.
i dont understand myself.
i dont understand guys.
i really want tomorrow to come, quick.
i have a TON of shit to do this weekend and because ive had duty 2x this week.. i feel like im going to explode.
ps did i mention on thursday it was definatly 80 degress and it was definatly snowing back home
and i was wearing my navy mesh bball shorts and tank top lookin all fly when ya'll were bundled up. hahah
anyway
i miss my family.. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
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lately ive been having these weird feelings, sort of out of body.
maybe im delusional
but ill be just sitting there and feel my self getting lighter and lighter and my body feels weightless and my spirit is free like im ready to float.
maybe its a preminision.
in other news i have a car.
a tan 98 toyota corrolllaaaaa.
its cute. it needs a cd player.
looks brand new.
smells like strawberries
runs beautiful and good on gas.
i hate virginia drivers though.
dumb fucks, not to say im perfect, i get distracted easily.
work sucks.
next week im going to be in the middle of the ocean. gggggggggreat.
last week of may however, we're going to be in NYC.
time to see my gangstuh homies like \/\/errrrd.
i really d ont know what i want out of the rest of my life.
yes college degree is what i want by the end of my 5 years of wasted life in the navy...
JOKE JOKE
but seriously. i dont know if im going to stay in here any longer than i already have to.
it sucks.
but if i do get out... what else am i going to do?
lately ive sort of been a wall-flower... how to you break out from such a bad unintentional behavior?
im not always like that but it seems to be a constant
maybe this whole working until un-godly hours and working on my day of saturday for the past week has made me that way.
anyway. the rest of the week we get out at noon because medical works our asses off for a pat on the back and get back to work shrug. all in the name of being number one department on the uss kearsarge.
deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-votion ;)
its late and i have duty, im tired so its bed time.
8 hours of sleep... aint toooo shabby.
tomorrow i have a date, yes. not only with the laundry mat buttttt a real live male.
who has a mustang. like wayne.... SHAAAAAAAAWING
adios |
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| stole from hannah! happy new year bitchs |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|12:58 pm] |
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2005 survery #1
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
overall, yes. i accomplished so much this year
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
shows, graduation, going away party, navy!
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
my stepdad and our disagreements, leaving everybody for 6 months and now again for a couple years.
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
downtown!!!
5) Who were you with?
laura murph murph!
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
hotel and downtown!
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
chris, maureen, vince, smitty &co.
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
i dont recall making one
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
just be successfull i guess but i already am so i guess to stay out of trouble and take NOTHING for granted
10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
yes... i thought TWICE. how pathetic but i realize i was never in love the first time so more like ONE
11) If yes, with who? <3
chris <3
12) If yes, do they know?
yes
13) Are you still in love with them?
yes
14) Do you regret it?
nope
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yesss
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
more than i ever thought
17) Who are your favorite new friends?
vaughn, velaszquez,micah, martin, moore, austin, scott hewlett, jackson (my navy people) <3
18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
hmmmmm june
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
CAN-DID-A
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
illinios and fuckinnn pennsylvania
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
not to me nope
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yes
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
wow wish i knew
24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
COLLIDE- howie day!
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
a ton
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Snapcase final preformance, unwritten law, blood brothers.
28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?
haha yeah especially these past few months
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
NOPE
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
hahah no comment!
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not that i remember
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
that they had cancer but didnt
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
yes
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
duh
36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
too much i wwish i would have saved it all!
37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
graduating fucking boot camp and finishing hospital corpsman school!!!!! being in chicago!!!
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
i have those all the time
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
that i would have saved money
40) What are your plans for 2006?
travel duh im gonna be on a ship but not taking life for granted, living life to the fullest, skydiving, starting college classes in virginia |
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[Dec. 30th, 2005|12:54 am] |
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It's funny how
things work out,
the ones we need
don't know we're there
If I were sand
and you were oceans,
the moon would be
why you're pulled to me
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can't ever be
the one person that won't ever forget me
-0-
i realize how much ive gained from this experience thus far.
this past year has been such a fucking ride. its amazing.
ive lost so many friends but gained so many
graduating....
NAVY
went to amazing shows
snapcase/ alexisonfire, my chemical romance/the used. tsl, blood brothers, action action, alexisonfire.... im missing a ton more...
and the most amazing part of the year- CHICAGO.
losing the one person i loved..
katie<3rip
i go back in 3 days.
theres so much i need to do and say before i go.
i feel like i havent done half as much as i wanted to or say during this time home.
and the fact that this is my last time home for a couple years.
can i sleep now? |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2005|01:11 pm] |
my single love horoscope today:
Starting over isn't easy. But think of this as an opportunity to sweep your romantic past of everything that didn't work, and figure out what will for your bright new future. Be positive.
i miss micah so much
sometimes i think about different options, we would still be together if i hadnt of brought scott with us that one weekend, how he would never have met those girls and how all the things that happened would never have.
but hes there and im here.
and if he wouldnt have gotten in trouble if he were together
cant look back, you can never look back |
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|10:12 pm] |
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i thought when i came home everything would be awesome and be everything i was planning on... is it?
hardly.
i miss my vaughn. i wont see her until i get back to chicago.
yes this week blows.
but next week im going to rochester, plus my super new years partyyy downtown with maureen, that will be interesting. and going to a sabres game
its just right now i feel really let down by a lot of people i know.
i dont think ill be coming back to buffalo for a few years if ever.
i miss chicago.
i realized comming back here absolutely nothing has changed and everyone else is still the same.
im not. ive changed, a lot. not just my looks and style.
ive grown up. i appreciate a lot more.
and im not as dumb and carefree, i realize that some people are stuck in the same rut they will always be stuck in and go no where.
i should stop bitching.
i just need to get laid.
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|08:46 am] |
you know whats sad?
when your home and no one recognizes you
like i went to wilson farms and this girl i went to high school with cashed my stuff out, didnt even recognize me
then at the mall last night 2 people, tiffany and jesse whom i used to work with, i walked by and they didnt even say anything.
i feel invisible
oh well.
im getting showwered.
going to the elmwood for rizzile
and ps.
im sick of always helping people. time for myself |
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[Dec. 9th, 2005|07:49 pm] |
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FINALLY got my orders.
USS KEARSAGE, Norfolk Virginia!
yaaaaaaaaaa buddy a fucking ship!
someone upstairs must love me
i passed my inspection, got my orders.
things are going great.
i didnt go see action action tonite
im sick
and its cold and im broke =( fuck
besides that its fucking sad
i come home next saturday!!!! 6 more days!
im so lonely.
i wish he wouldnt have gotten in trouble.
hes going to california, me virginia.....
"love seems like a mess
when it won't let go of me
but when it's gone i don't feel
when it's gone i don't feel alive
don't leave me alone
i can't stand the way the world feels
when i'm walking alone"
yeah im pretty sure ill move on |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005|04:38 pm] |
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this made me cry:
from the buffalo news
Katie L. Magle had made her mother promise that if anything should happen to her, that she wanted her organs to be donated.
"Don't talk like that," Diane L. Magle remembered saying to her 17-year-old daughter that day a few months ago when she'd come home inspired by an assembly on organ donation at Mount Mercy Academy, where she was a senior.
"Promise me," Katie insisted.
Thursday night, the Buffalo mother was faced with the unimaginable.
Katie was killed in a car accident that day when her best friend lost control of her car and slammed into a tree in Orchard Park.
Katie's sister, Kellie, 15, whose hand was broken in the crash, opened the door to the back seat and found her sister slumped over.
The driver, Danielle Gallagher, 17, of Buffalo, a student at Mount Mercy Academy with the Magle sisters, suffered a leg injury. Her 14-year-old brother, Kevin, a student at West Seneca East, broke his jaw. He is in the Intensive Care Unit at Erie County Medical Center. Information on his condition was not available late Friday.
Paramedics revived Katie at the scene and rushed her to Mercy Hospital, where doctors struggled for hours to keep her alive, authorities said.
After Katie died, Diane and John C. Magle made good on their pledge to their daughter.
"I had to do it," Diane Magle said sobbing Friday. "We donated her corneas and they said it might help four people. And her heart. And some valves. Some bone to help kids with cancer."
Magle said she knows her daughter would be happy. "She was such a loving, caring kid," she said. "She wanted to help everybody."
The crash occurred at 8:39 p.m. Thursday on Freeman Road, near Stonehenge Drive. The four had been out in that area Christmas shopping.
Orchard Park police, who said the road was wet at the time of the accident, are investigating why the car left the road.
Diane Magle said she went to see Danielle at ECMC - where she remained late Friday - after she underwent surgery on her leg. No information was available on her condition.
"I told her I loved her and her brother," she said.
Kellie is back home, devastated by the death of her sister.
Diane Magle talked about the terrible twist of fate that took one daughter's life but spared the other's.
"I had the best and the worst," she said.
All day Friday, Katie and Kellie's friends, along with classmates, teachers and the principal at Mount Mercy Academy, poured into the Magle house to try to comfort the bereaved family.
Friday evening, Magle remembered Katie as a "beautiful, beautiful girl. She was loved by everyone. The kind of kid who never fought with others."
Magle said she had an unexplainable experience Thursday night, before she learned about the accident.
She was at a bowling alley and thought she heard Katie call out "Mom."
Just hours later, she would see her lifeless body at the hospital.
"She just laid there like a beautiful princess," her mother said. ". . . My baby. I just loved her."
Katie, who worked part-time jobs at K-Mart in West Seneca and Bowl Inn, Buffalo, was a member of the Drama Club and little theater group at Mount Mercy Academy. She had won an award from DARE for an essay against drug use.
In addition to her parents and sister, she is survived by two brothers, John Jr. and James, and her grandparents, Robert and Jean Hurd of Buffalo.
Prayers will be said at 12:15 p.m. Wednesday in Joseph K. Quinn Funeral Home, 192 Abbott Road, Buffalo, followed at 1 by services in Grace Lutheran Church, Casenovia Street. Burial will be in Holy Cross Cemetery.
katie and my brother were in a relationship this past year
and when i heard about it, i really didnt know what to think
whenever i think about it i just cry.
such a young girl with so much ahead of her, gone.
i cant even fathom how it must be for my brother and her family.
losing someone so young. someone who was loved... and not even the fact that its my brothers ex girlfriend,
the guilt i would feel if this happened to anyone i was close to, i would be able to move on...
everyone has so much strength, especially my brother
i only can pray that shes in heaven, a better place
we all love you katie
see you again someday...
my shitty weekend doesnt even compare to the weekend he is going through
Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,
to answer your question I just had to leave,
I just had to leave,
But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you,
Found my way back in the dark tonight,
Couldn't wake up not right next to you,
I'd trade forever to just hear you say the sound of my name,
But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you,
Don't believe that it's better when you leave everything behind,
Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you, |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|06:14 pm] |
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18 days until im home
im so fucking happy and excited
lately things have been great.
though ive lost so much, ive gained so much
i love sara vaughn so much
shes helped me through so much
hopefully my orders are to florida.
shes one person i dont want to leave my life.
we lean on eachother for everything.
ive met this guy from new york.
city.
micah......
i know things wont progress as much as i would like to
we are the perfect match but hes going with the marines
we graduate on the same day.
kind of crazy, i would so marry him but yeah hahaha
anyway
cant wait to fucking hold buffalo again
i know it wont be the same
my room, my house....my friends.
all different now
i wish i could back in time and re-live the summers
and just lay on the beach
and tan
and just be ME again
i got my jacket and ring in the mail again.
fuck its warm
and i love and missed my calagugh ring
6 months of being away
6 fucking months.
my horoscope today:::::If you're seeing someone, even if it's only been platonic in the past, the relationship is probably about to deepen considerably, and when you least expect it:::::
"leave it up to you to burden me again, this ones not your fault.." |
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[Nov. 5th, 2005|10:11 am] |
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so much crap has been happening lately
i dont know much about my self anymore.
i feel so hectic and lost at times.
but then i remember to breathe
every night since i was little i always wished apon the first star i saw
"star light star bright first star i see tonight, i wish i may wish i might have this wish i make tonight" and since ive been in the navy i wish the same thing every night
that wish is
that everything turns out okay in the end
and strangley enough it does.
it really does.
so lately school...dramatic.
on
test 5-91.57
test 6- 71.50
test 7- 91.57
damn.
im doing okay.
i always jinx myself
when i think i did good i end up doing bad
when i think i fail i do good
knock on wood.
ive been quazi depressed lately
i keep thinking about home.
i miss my family.
"I'm writing home to tell you
That I miss it all so terribly
In the way that makes your stomach ache
And your hands begin to shake
My hands still shake
I need to see my friends
And I want my family
Germany is beautiful
But I wanna go home
I swear I'll sleep again, I'll sleep again
Happiness is my own bed
I'll sleep again, I'll sleep again
Get me on a plane I'm dead
Empty breakdown lanes and truck stop phones
Leave the door unlocked, I'm coming home
It's people like you that keep me going strong
I'll sleep again, I'll sleep again
Happiness is my own bed
I'll sleep again, I'll sleep again
Get me on a plane I'm dead"- the movielife
i saw jarhead today
i cried and was shaking uncontrolably.
i can relate, not only because it deals with corpsman and marines but a lot of what the movie deals with my uuncle went through
i miss my family... i want home so bad
ill be home december 17
FLIGHT
Itinerary:
Saturday, December 17 - CHICAGO-MIDWAY(MDW) to BUFFALO NY(BUF)
Flight 2834 B
Depart CHICAGO-MIDWAY(MDW) at 02:00PM and
Arrive in BUFFALO NY(BUF) at 04:30PM
Monday, January 02 - BUFFALO NY(BUF) to CHICAGO-MIDWAY(MDW)
Flight 2483 Q
Depart BUFFALO NY(BUF) at 05:00PM and
Arrive in CHICAGO-MIDWAY(MDW) at 05:50PM |
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[Oct. 21st, 2005|10:42 pm] |
sup with my homies
test 5 today
91.57
HAH
and i thought i failed
test 6 is the corpsman killer.
god only knows how ill do on it
in early tonight, spending the day in chicago tomorrow, broke but in high spirits
hey everyone
i come home december 17th my plan leaves here around 2 so ill be home like around 5 your guys time
yay
ill be home until january 2nd
at school i get lonesome and think about home
more like buffalo
i imagine myself driving around downtown, going to spot, then i imagine driving up mckinley parkway and as i pass trees breaks of sun peaking through
its the weirdest thing
none of you will ever get this until you havent seen "home" in over 4 months.
you'll get what im saying some day.
i miss my cat more than anything. i really do and its depressing.
but i shall survive. hell a little over 50 days, i can manage. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|06:27 pm] |
i love him so deeply now but after what happened saturday and everyone finding out im devistated
And I'm still here waiting there
To catch you if you fall.
I don't know why I care so much
When I shouldn't care at all. |
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[Oct. 7th, 2005|10:19 pm] |
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A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...
finally phase 2 liberty
went to chicago with andrew campbell.
of course him being from the back woods of PA doesnt know how to act andgave a bum 5$.
aw
anyway
went to the sears tower, did you know fucking cell phones dont work on top of the biggest structure in the US of A?
we went to giordinas, best pizza in chicago for dinner
soo good. and because it was cold and rainy decided to leave.
the whole time he kept telling me how beautiful i was.
he makes me melt.
after so much drama this week with some friends leaving and what not, he reassures me that it will be okay.
he gives me confidence thats amazing...a drive and motivation to push myself when it comes to my studying and when im around him to let me be, ME.
tomorrow i think im getting my tattoo. if i dont wussy out and major shopping
andrew promised me an amazing date next weekend, cant wait.
if only you all knew.
if only.
but anyway
itsr eallly warm here, well its actually cold as a bitch outside, warm in the building hoooyah heat!
and for the past week ive been getting 4.5 hours of sleep since friday
im tired as fuck
but anyway
lovemuch
dee |
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[Sep. 24th, 2005|10:04 pm] |
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It was labor day weekend I was seventeen
I bought a coke and some gasoline
And I drove out to the county fair
When I saw her for the first time
She was standing there in the ticket line
And it all started right then and there
Oh, a sailer’s sky made a perfect sunset
And that’s the day I’ll never forget
I had a barbeque stain on my white tee shirt
She was killing me in that miniskirt
Skippin’ rocks on the river by the railroad tracks
She had a suntan line and red lipstick
I worked so hard for that first kiss
And a heart don’t forget something like that
Well it was five years later on a southbound plane
I was headed down to new orleans
To meet some friends of mine for mardi gras
When I heard a voice from the past
Comin’ from a few rows back
And when I looked, I couldn’t believe just what I saw
She said I bet you don’t remember me
And I said only every other memory
I had a barbeque stain on my white tee shirt
You were killing me in that miniskirt
Skippin’ rocks on the river by the railroad tracks
You had a suntan line and red lipstick
I worked so hard for that first kiss
And a heart don’t forget something like that
Like an old photograph
Time can make a feeling fade
But the memory of a first love
Never fades away
I had a barbecue stain on my white tee shirt
She was killing me in that miniskirt
Skippin? rocks on the river by the railroad tracks
She had a sun tan line and red lipstick
I worked so hard for that first kiss
A heart don’t forget, no a heart don’t forget
I said a heart don’t forget something like that
Oh, not something like that
yeah thats sorta how im feeling
why cant i, when i am happy, look happy?
for instance today i was happy but i cant seem to show it
and people are noticing.
tonight when i came back from hanging out all night with the boys, the girl on the quartar deck was like
"shipmate come here, i notice everytime i see you, you look so serious, whats wrong"
god damnit
was i always like this?
how did i become this way
fuck fuck fuck
anyway today i talked to my sister for the first time in 3 months
i miss her so much. shes sending me my civies... aka clothes and cds. hooyah.
still havent heard from brandon.
=( maybe thats why im upset.
anyway
im out.
i bought the new sigur ros cd
anddd john mayer, heavier things
because both make me happy
anyway im out
ps ive lost my buffalo accent.
im developing a weird midwest/southern accent
but i sound hot hahah |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2005|10:42 pm] |
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so yeah
the power is going to be going out at 12am
for 24 hours
fuck man
im still kickin
classes are getting longer and harder
thank god real classes
but lack of sleep. fuck!
thank god for weekends and sleeping in
hotpockets and betty crocker microwave pasta are my meals of choice lately
i love being a corpsman.. so when i come home if yall get stupid i can fix you up.
give me prayers of motivation and knowledge these upcomming weeks
i miss it all so terribly
i miss home but idont
imcold the AC is like 50 in our apartments
fuck!
but anyway
im tired and goin to sleep
gooo navy smoooothhhhe sailing
navy=
n ever
a again
v olunteer
y yourself
ps i wouldlike for you all to shoot my recruiter paul fino jr
in the head
with a shot gun
pref a 12 guage right to the heart and temple
kthx |
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[Sep. 17th, 2005|09:21 pm] |
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| | fall out boy | ] |
so here i have a group of 10 cool friends
yeah only thing not cool tonight was being the 5th wheel.
carlson, what a dick left me and sat in the row behind us
dont see dukes of hazard.
i only wasted 2$ on it so it wasnt that bad of a loss
but anyway
im worried about brandon
this place is crazy
fun but crazy
lots of people ive talked to are on restriction meaning they fucked up. and for stupid reasons too. how people are so dumb, beyond me.
the two girls i went to boot ccamp with who are here in A school with me both have guys now.
one is a fleet returnee, edwards who has a girlfriend and a kid
the other girl is getting with this guy, murphy whom everyone knows and is fucked up
tonight he told me and the 2 guys when we were out having a smoke that he had sex with a girl just an hour before the movie. now hes hooking up with my "friend"
now the 2 girls are wrapped up in these guys
all the guys think im cool as hell because im so laid back
i wish i was more outgoing, to a point i am just not how these 2 girls are right now
they come off as fresh meat and easy... edwards even said so.
all the guys say im cool but shit i hate this
its so lonely. since guys outnumber girls here you see the constant cycle of hook ups, sex, drugs, stds and the eventual breaking up... and then it repeats itself
come on. we havent even been ehere a fucking week, i can see, i understand my surroundings fairly well, and where you came from has a lot to do with it... people from more rural areas dont understand the games and mind twisting that goes on... thank god im from the city... believe me you'd never realize it until you have been around these people how niave people can be.. especially country folk. no harm intended on those who are from the country...
but when these girls CONSTANTLY reminisce about boot camp every 2 seconds, it drives me insane. move on, this isnt boot camp.
i think thats why i get along with the people who've been in here for a while because i dont care about that trite shit anymore.
ive been frustrated today
not a good day.
weaver, who has a girlfriend a kid and another on the way is the only person that i can talk to and he understands, and i understand his situation.
very few people you can talk to here that you can trust.
yeah anyway
bad night
is it a full moon?
im gonna go do laundry. iron. work out.
tomorrow, a new day.
i think ill go run a few miles tomorrow
roger that.
im off to do some shit
peace out
btw cell is 5414120 |
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